大昔見てもらった手相で「あんたは金持ちになることはないけど喰うには困らない」と言われたのを地で行ってる。
近い将来からの恩返しの機織りくらいはがんがるわ…（って、あちらも当然、ソレありきでの今なんだと思うが）。
今日もまたこれをエクストリームな形で痛感する１日だった。
とある関係者の反応を見て「あ、やっぱそうだよね」ってなるレベルで。
ていうか、うん、そう、今年の半分にも及ぶ無駄に好条件の居候自体何かがおかしい。
さりとて、居候の身は性格的にえらく気を使ってしまうので多少悪条件でも早く出て行きたくはあるのだけど、それすらここと比して幾分かの条件は下がるにせよ、だいぶ条件は良いのだよな。
何に礼をすればよいのやら。
まあ頑張るしかない。
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@DigiVoyager Yes, it is exactly it.
However various circumstances let me be here for now (taking way too longer as "temporally" than I expected), and the host keeps treating me nice though, there's huge mismatching of the value of life.
The way they treat their staffs, what they talking about, the way they waste or spend, even the way they commute or what they do for me, everything I witness here makes me feel not-belonging here in daily basis.
Well, nothing wrong they do for themselves, neither me for mine. Nobody does anything wrong though.
@browneyes
"The way they treat their staffs, what they talking about, the way they waste or spend, even the way they commute or what they do for me, everything I witness here makes me feel not-belonging here in daily basis."
I also avoid certain relatives due to that very reason. Privileged people can be scary.
@browneyes I can relate, someone I work with lives alone at home and due to security issues he asks me to house sit with him often, even though I am helping in a sense somehow I still feel as if I don't belong there, probably because the place is too good for me somehow?